To cry without tears
To wail without yell
Could you see what’s not there
Would you help when I’m difficult to bear
No hugs and kisses, where did fun go?, no x and o’s
I wish u were right, I only did this for the attention
Then maybe I would make it as an actor
or won’t wake up at nights
with suicide on my mind.
I’m worried of what was,
maybe thats the cause
of what is, if so, what is to come.
Worried that all your expectations I might not be,
Despite giving the ants and bees
A run for their money,
I don’t get the honeys..
Which is the least of priorities
Tho Still on the list of my priorities
Cuz I need spiritual healing,
not some 2 faced religious billing
Bro can you tell your hommie is loosing his spark by looking at his eyes
Sis can you wait outside when he caves, even super man needs to be saved
Not war but love keeps the hulk caged.
To smile without joy
To be the life of the party yet the most detached
To communicate yet not known
To seem available, yet unattainable
We are guys, don’t make your problems my concern
When its all rosy
Just then Roseline
Calls me honey
I wish we would know and show empathy
If so, would you find me
When I say not to, but want you to
My understanding of strength is to never let emotions show
You’ll never see me cry, like Nigeria no get snow
To avoid disappointment, have no expectations
So now u know,
I need your warmth even when my countenance can boil the north pole
Or my response so cold,
I can make Santa wear summer clothes.
Just maybe we’ve packaged this depression thing so good we all want a part in this brand
Or we’re under some error from the ones before us,
Consider a void in the unrealization of a promise
Say what you expect despite being my balm.
Just a little space and I’ll come around.